边缘.

i should have board the bus and go home.....or should i say should not go for class. smsing him spell trouble. dun understand why i sms him that i change my location of waiting and get blasted not one day, it's 2 days. just that i nv inform him right away when's he's late and i just walk off to the bus stop alone, bus stop is less than 5 mins away. this short time lag make him so angry.....and he pick this to quarrel. when he reached the bus stop tell him to sit down, he just show me the stone face. drinking lots of water, just wanna get home to the toilet quick, should have board the earlier bus, instead of waiting for him to blast me. to him, it seems like making wait for me is a very stupid thing to do, wait till so "勉强", from his words of anger. walking fast is usual for me and the whole world knows. talking loud/crude is common in my home and closing door loud is because the door is harder to close compare to the old doors. All this become rude to him. say i ignore him.....i nv answer him and duno how to answer him when he blasted, because i can't proof what he didn't see and he already assume everything in his questions instead of really asking me the facts.

he can continue till whole day today blasting non-stop. In his words and eyes i have become such a bad person. his words seems so piercing and i feel like blocking his numbers forever. his every words make me feel so sad and he still dun understand why i ignore him. he keeps dragging in my frd and his words are full of jealousy. This really piss me off. i understand why he want to magnify tiny misunderstanding to a so pessimisstic view. and his point of quarrel is not to make things better and makes the quarrel seems so childish. 在最需要被了解的时候, 把我推向边缘. 我好难过,好心痛. 这是我爱, 我所信任的人吗? 脑袋一片空白......需要时间思索......我输给了自己...........feel so cold and lonely.....still crying to sleep....算了.....我要平静.

i've nv believe in people especially those close to me
i've try so hard to walk out of my isolated world when u say u will make me smile
i believe but your words are so hurting, make me distrust the world outside again
if i can sleep forever, i will not want to wake up again
because i believe eternity is only in dreamland not in the real world u show me