他

他问了。当听见时，我却突然脑袋一片空白不知所措。甚至有点害怕了起来，因为生活的人与事使我 无法信任我身边自亲的人。我想了很久，终于答应了。他好开心，我却还在担心与迷乱。我害怕辜负了他的期望，总觉得很多人会被我柔落的外表骗了，其实我很坏并不是人们眼中的那么乖。

那天半夜我说饿了，他就马上达巴士送了零食过来。 我说我在Sentosa ， 他就马上从家里赶了下来， 是为了陪我看音乐喷泉和吃晚餐。 好感动， 但也很惊讶， 爱情的力量怎么那么大， 让我有点害怕。 他怎么为我做这么多，那我呢？这几天相处下来很开心， 但还是希望他还是会有他自己的空间作他喜爱的事务不必牵就我那么多。很喜欢那种被疼爱的感觉，好开心哦。但是不希望自己被宠坏。

歌手: 张信哲
專輯:寬容

【忘情忘愛】　　

我的整個世界 面目已全非
所有愛恨喜悲 都在天上飛
究竟還有什麼掛念 讓我不能睡
為何覺得如此的狼狽
承受不了你的善變 我知難而退
不管對不對 是對愛不想有所違背

心情再亂、再壞、再無奈
也不掉一滴淚
心上的那個空缺 不求人安慰
雖然寂寞如影相隨 怎麼都不對
只怕藕斷絲連 傷痛會加倍

從此忘情、忘愛、忘傷悲
忘掉你有多美
讓自己沒有時間 沒有機會
沒有念頭要挽回
吞下多少苦澀滋味 你不會了解
不管愛你恨你 都是那麼絕對

我的世界既然面目已全非
什麼愛恨喜悲 都已無所謂


每当伤心时听这首歌, 会有种疗伤于安慰的作用.就这样地喜欢上阿哲的歌.

命运作弄人

最经跟他来往很平密
不知道是有缘还是命运作弄人
不知道是不是我多心了还是他的关心超越了朋友
可能是我胡思乱想
可能在他的眼里我只是一个小妹
他的言语中有一些些明示
听了之后我整晚翻来覆去在分析他说的话
我也不断的在询问自己
很想坦诚面对我们之间
不想在猜疑矛盾中
不想再次让缘分插肩而过
如果是我多疑了就让我继续我之前所规划的未来吧
不想再徘徊在没结果的猜疑, 忘了他

Life is short

On monday when i was at the pantry waiting for my turn to wash my water bottle. A colleague from production dept came in to collect his uniform from the store-room in the pantry. While collecting, he chats with another colleague. As the chat i joint in too, because i heard a very unexpected news from him. An ex-colleage has passed away due to throat cancer. She quit her job about 2 years during my probation period. She was in her early 30s and she said that she quitting to start a business of her own. After she quit, she actually came back to visit us once. She was nice and responsible person. She just gave birth to a son just before she died. She discovered her cancer during her routine preganancy check-ups. Her doctor took some cell sample from her unhealed wound in her mouth to do testing and found out that she got throat cancer. She made her decision to keep her child and eventually has to go for an emergency operation to take her baby out premature. She died not long after that. i'm not sure whether she has seen her child or not. but feel very touched by her motherly love for her child.She actually gave up her life for her child.

On fri, another friend told me that a sec sch classmate has got intestine cancer. Although we are not close, but felt worry for her too....coincidently we got the same D.O.B......but her close friend said that we are quite different in characters.....wonder how will it be like if she and i are close friends. heard that's she will be having an operation on monday, hope that she will win the battle. Maybe visiting her soon, i may not be her close friend but hope that a distant care do help her to fight her battle with cancer. hope that it's not to late to get to know a friend again.

In less than 1 month, 3 deaths and illness news has seems to loom around me....just hope that GOD Bless them dead or alive.......Bad Luck GoGoGo AWAY....ssshoooo~

爱如潮水

Shopping

today went to a warehouse sale near my workplace just across the street. i bought 4 blosters, 1 slipper & 1 winnie the phooh, which are all authentic products. heard from George that a company which sold these products has closed down and was clearing their stock at the warehouse. blosters going at $3 each, miffy's slipper at $3 & winnie the phooh at $2 only. All these would have cost me at least $100 if i bought them at shops. i bought these for my niece & nephew and jiawen & jiajing....but too bad never buy any for myself, it's too heavy filling up 2 huge shopping bags. On the way home strangers stared at me with curious look and kids looked with envy....haha.....if the sale is still on i wanna go shopping again.... there's a huge mashimoro there but too bad, it's too heavy and need at least 2 persons to carry and i don't think i got that space in my home.

George drove me there and carried back 2 bags with him and this was his 3rd or 4th trip already. He almost look like santa claus, all items were snapped up within minutes. when i left my company, GM just came by and saw me...surprise and wondering where did i get these...hahaha

at the bus-stop i called ah ling jie jie. she is currently in hospital now and is about to give birth...hohoho...nephew just in time for the things i just bought for them.....wanna visit them this weekend......so excited

Rumour Kills

one of my colleague told me that there was a rumour circulating that this guy "X" likes me and maybe taking "actions" soon. All i know that he likes to smile at me with a childlike smile, don't why. hope that things will remain calm, and all are just rumours and wild guess. I'm very thankful that "X" always help me with my work and sometimes disturb me so that i won't feel bored at work. but that's all, i just treat him like a big brother. In fact almost every department i go there will be so call "boyfriend", whom they claim or people who try to match us up. Is it a sin to be single? can't they leave me alone. I prefer that my boyfriend won't be of the same working place. I see too much bad work attitude or poor characters which makes me minus them off from my "eligible boyfriend list". For the time being, can people from my work place leave me alone?

重要的是在对的时间遇见对的人,可惜你们都不是。有时会觉得寂寞, 可是目前我很享受现有的自由, 也在默默地等待对的人出现。

Safety at work

Last week when i was rushing out of QC room, i knocked against a stand which was place a the side of the door which was spoilt. My left thigh got a long stretch of blueblack and scratch....i was so pain. but there's so many people around the production floor, i must act cool and bitting on my lips to bear with the pain and act as though nothing was wrong.

On thursday, i strain my back muscles while carrying my NG product for testing. i was trying to shift it to the trolley beside it, but it's too heavy, probably more than 6kg. i never realise it till the nxt morning when i woke up and got a bad back pain.

On friday, i nearly sprain my left toe. after pushing to close my drawer, i was turning my chair back to my desk, when suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my toe. my toe knocked against the edge of the drawer. i don't know why i was so pain, since the edge of the drawer was not even sharp and was round. it was probably because the joint of my toe was knocked against the edge of drawer.

what a week with bad luck =(

My Love Story

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At its core, the Love Conquers All story is very romantic, triumphant, and full of courage to face yourself with honesty. The catalyst for change in your love story is usually a pivotal event, circumstance, or reevaluation of yourself.

Where should you look for these pivotal moments? Challenges may come from family and society — even yourself. Do loved ones disapprove of your partner, raise concerns you hadn't previously cared that much about? Turning points may also stem from previous obligations at work, or in promises you've made to others. Do you reschedule or delay plans with your partner because you feel the need to honor responsibilities at the office? Do you prioritize taking care of a friend in need over the needs of your mate?

These themes are echoed throughout history and recorded in diaries, novels, television and films. In Jane Austin's novel "Emma" for example, the protagonist put everybody else's romantic needs before her own. Had she not stopped to question herself, she would have missed a chance for love altogether. Was she just looking after her friends? Or was she guarding herself from the potential hurt of a relationship or unrequited love?

Ambition to be loyal to loved ones, move ahead at work, improve your home, see the world — these are all good things. But sometimes, they take precedence over your love life — whether you are conscious of it or not. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but think about it. Are you ever afraid of being held back from your goals? Or that a relationship might make attaining those goals a slower process, or change them completely?

Remember Nicolas Cage in the film "Family Man"? Through a strange twist of fate, he's given the opportunity to see life as it might have been had he gotten married instead of pursued successes at work. Though fantastical and magical, he experiences a jarring event, and through it, realizes he has different priorities. He would give up his important job and expensive belongings to be with the one woman he realizes he truly loves. And he realizes that his initial choice to pursue his career instead of pursue his relationship was driven not by his hopes for success, but his fear of taking on the seriousness of his relationship. With this insight, he has the courage to face himself, not preexisting hopes and goals.

Even if fate doesn't throw obstacles in your way, it's possible that you do. Do you shy away from romantic commitments? Do you make excuses for not dating? Do you wish your relationships never progressed passed the lovey-dovey stage? Are the people you date "all wrong" for you? There's a reason you're holding back from pursuing a good thing. You may put excuses between you and another person, or you may intentionally pick the wrong person to give you an out, an alternative to getting serious. The real courage in your love story comes from taking a good look at yourself, and questioning your motivations.

Once you recognize this as your story, you will indeed have the courage and the insight to question yourself and make a commitment, or break with someone before external events force you to. In this manner, Courage is one of the most noble and truthful love stories out there.

In "Notting Hill," Julia Roberts plays a movie star whose career (not to mention awful boyfriend) get in the way of a fledgling romance with a London bookseller (Hugh Grant). In "Autumn in New York," a cheating playboy played by Richard Gere finds himself in love with a dying 22-year-old. Will he mend his ways before it's too late? The love story that drives these plots is the same that drives your fantasies and relationships, which is why these stories can be so powerful. Of course, in the movies it's always clear just whom the lead person should hook up with. In real life, it's quite a bit harder. Love Conquers All, and now you're equipped to find it.

Whether you realize it or not, you might be slightly at odds with yourself when it comes to matters of love. On the one hand, you might be ready for the love of your life. On the other hand, you might want to protect yourself from a potential hurt should that love not work out. Do you view love suspiciously at times? Avoid the traditional trappings of romance — flowers, chocolates, and Valentine's Day? Perhaps you've had your heart broken one too many times, or you so desperately want a true love, that you are almost afraid of failing on your way to it.

At times, you can be fiercely independent. Though, painful memories of a past relationship, or aspirations to success in other areas of your life, can sometimes make you less of a risk-taker in the land of love. Do you have tunnel vision unless a dramatic event grabs your attention? Maybe you equate settling down with the right person as a one-way ticket to the retirement community. You may avoid relationships altogether, or you may prefer to keep them casual. Do you have a reputation for being a player? Do you date lots of people at once, preventing any one relationship from going too far? Or do you tend to make excuses when it comes to romance, placing work or other obligations in between you and a potential lover?

On one level, your love story is driven by an underlying faith that "the one" is out there waiting for you. On another level, you might not want to search for it because you don't want to fail in finding it. Whatever the basis, fear probably contributes to your story, whether fear of commitment, fear of settling down, fear of rejection, or fear of what other people may think. If your partner comes from a different background - social, ethnic, economic, you might be afraid to introduce friends to him.

Fortunately, love is stronger than whatever challenges you might face. Though you may subconsciously sabotage aspects of a relationship to protect yourself, love will likely prove stronger. When given the choice to walk away or take a chance with a soul mate, you will take the chance when it is right. And remember, you are not bound to this love story. Once you understand it and the role it plays in your life, you can make the most of it, or you can decide it's no longer working for you and that it's time to move on.

Love could be staring you in the face, and you might not even see it. The biggest pitfall for you is letting your issues get in the way of a good thing. You need to expand your vision and consider the big picture. If some experience or situation has soured you on love, or has made it too unbearably perfect to stand, it's time to address it! Confidence in yourself and optimism in the future will keep you from missing out on something truly special.

It's okay to have standards and rules, but make sure you haven't built a fortress around yourself. Our values change as we grow older. When's the last time you rethought the direction you're heading in life? Revaluate what's most important to you — not to others, not to the dreams you had when you were 15 or 20 or 31 — what's important to you now, at this moment, at this age? Don't be afraid to change the priorities in your life. You don't get points for following previous life dreams if they no longer represent your current hopes and desires.

Romance for you begins with a sudden, unexpected rush. It's probably a gut feeling you have about someone that you subsequently squelch or question. Maybe the person is your opposite, which is why his contrasting characteristics jar you into noticing him. Or perhaps you share such a strong, common, interest, you can't believe he's finally arrived after all of these years.

Someone who's right for you will probably show up unexpectedly, but the surprise will get your attention. Once you're looking, prepare to be impressed. Did you realize your quiet colleague was also an accomplished musician? Has it suddenly dawned on you that your best friend is attracted to you? You have more fun with your dentist than anyone you've met in ages. Your next-door neighbor cooks like a four-star chef. Who knew?

Of course, you won't see anyone who's right for you, if you're not looking. So lose the shades! If you're dating multiple people at once, why not whittle it down to the one who really interests you? Maybe you should be single for awhile. That might make it easier for someone to approach you. Haven't dated in a year? It's time to figure out why. Look at how you're spending your time. Is one area of your life taking up more than its fair share? Maybe you've met someone you want to be with, but there's some obstacle between the two of you. This will be a true test of your devotion. Overcome it, and you'll form a deeper bond.

It's okay to be picky! Maybe your reluctance has protected you from bad mistakes, but maybe it's prevented you from seeing a true love standing right in front of your face. Now that you understand your love story, you're equipped with knowledge that can keep you from missing a good opportunity. You can take charge of your love story and make it work for you, or move on. Whatever you decide, your independence and courage will take you far in life and in love. Indeed, in your happy ending, Love Conquers All.

Second Chances is your secondary Love Story

The Second Chances love story is rooted in nostalgia. Whether you're longing for the ex you haven't seen in a year, or are reminiscing about the crush you never connected with 10 years ago, this kind of searching is indicative of more than dissatisfaction with your current romantic relationships.

Whether you do it consciously or not, most people who migrate towards the Second Chances love story either want to revise a past decision, confront someone you couldn't at the time, or revert back to a specific point in time. Do you ever wish you could return to a different period in your life?

This story is repeated more times than you could imagine. Take the film "Peggy Sue Got Married," for instance. In it, a housewife faints at her high school reunion and wakes up in her senior year at high school with the chance to change her destiny. The root of your story too, may arise from these feelings, that you need to reconnect with a time in your life when love was a larger focus of your life and responsibilities were much fewer. But it also might stem from other things as well.

Your love story may arise out of regret for the past, or a desire to go back to when things were easier. Did you have a particularly easy, fun adolescence? Have you recently suffered a loss — perhaps a divorce or the death of a loved one — that's made you long for the period before that incident?

Are you acutely aware that decisions carry with them a strong impact? Do you spend a lot of time analyzing your decisions, going over things you've said or done in your mind? Or are you simply sentimental, in love with old books and classic films, as well as your own memories? It's no wonder this is such a common love story. How many films feature starlets staring off dreamily into a recollection of days past? How many books reveal heroes and heroines kept apart in the beginning, only to find themselves together at the end?

Romantic films and books often use this archetypal tale of paradise lost and regained to create some of the greatest love stories of all time. "Casablanca" is one of the greatest renditions of this love story. In it, Rick, played by Humphrey Bogart, is haunted by a brief romance with Ilsa (Ingrid Bergman), shattered by circumstances beyond their control. "The Way We Were," another classic, follows a similar story line. In "American Beauty," Kevin Spacey plays a man who tries to recapture his youth through an affair with a teenage girl. These stories are so powerful precisely because they are so easy to relate to. This historical love story overpowers everybody at one point or another. How this tried and true love story plays out in individual lives, varies from person to person.

How your love story affects you and your relationships
You believe in destiny, that there's someone out there who fate intends for you to meet. But you're not above helping fate along now and then. Do you obsess over photo albums? Search faces on the street and in airports for a hint of familiarity? Have you searched Yahoo! People Search or Classmates.com for names from the past? If you haven't gotten in touch with old flames, you look for their qualities in the people you meet now.

Thoughts of passion might get you a little teary-eyed sometimes. Daydreaming, for you, is a lot like watching an old movie or flipping through dusty yearbooks. Whether dating casually or in a committed long-term relationship, your idea of a romantic evening together is built around nostalgic notions of courtship and manners. You get ideas for activities from old books and movies — a classic picnic on a grassy hill, a walk along the boardwalk, a candlelit dinner, waltzing the night away at a ritzy supper club.

If you're mourning the loss of your youth, you may try to recapture it by doing things that make you look and feel young now. You might try out the latest look, attempt a new sport, listen to the latest hip band, or buy an impractical sports car. Dating younger people just might boost your self-esteem and challenge you to try new things.

However you choose to live out your love story, it's bound to be romantic and exciting. What's the harm in calling up an old flame who you can't get out of your mind? Even if your former love is married with six kids and has a gut the size of a stadium, at least you'll know and can stop obsessing. Why not date someone from the younger generation, reinvigorate a little, have some fun? Love comes in many packages and blossoms during many periods of life. Perhaps, you are tired of living in the past and are ready to embrace the now. Don't worry! Your love story is simply a roadmap that you can choose to follow or diverge from. Psychologists and experts have helped thousands of women recognize these patterns in their own lives and make the choice: Embrace the love story or move on. It's your choice.

How to avoid common mistakes
Your desire to go back to the past indicates something might be missing from your life today, or that your earlier years were a particularly amazing time. While a relationship can certainly fill that hole, it's important for you to determine what besides love you're looking for. That will allow you to fill that need yourself, rather than looking to another person to provide. You may need to let go of past mistakes and regrets, realizing that everything works itself out in the end. It might be helpful to contact the person you're obsessing over, and compare the reality of who they are with the dream you've been nurturing. At the same time, you may need to pull yourself out of a rut by infusing your daily routine with exciting activities and new people.

Once you've figured out what's missing, you can embrace the future and stop worrying over the past. Be open to life. Take some risks. Approach your memories with a healthier perspective. Whether your next romance is with someone from the past, the present, or a special someone who you've not yet met, you can enjoy the best aspects of your love story — the romance, sentiment, and fond memories — without getting bogged down with baggage from the past.

How to recognize someone who's healthy for you
The person who's right for you will share your love of romance, nostalgia, and sentimentality, while embracing the present with gusto. You'll be able to curl up on the couch together and watch old movies, slurp spaghetti at a checker-clothed table lit with drippy candles, and take horse-drawn carriage rides through the park together, never forgetting to try new things.

If you're longing for your youth, a fling with someone young could be just the thing to pull you out of the past and invigorate your present with new experiences. Any person who challenges you to live in the here and now, encourages you to take risks, be open to life, and have fun will be a good match. And you never know. Perhaps the reason that first love was so powerful is because it truly was the real deal.

Just because your love story has grown out from your past, doesn't mean it isn't full of wonderful possibilities. It's up to you to decide how it ends. Whether you reconnect with lovers past or embrace the future for the first time, your experiences and memories will be bountiful; your romance will be one for the ages.

The Other Love Stories and How They Affect Us

Now you know how your primary and secondary love stories have played out in your life. But at some point, you're sure to be affected by all the love stories in one way or another. That's because the elements of these tales are universal — and the traits of one story, are not always so far from the characteristics of another.

As circumstances surrounding your relationships change, you may start to see shades of the remaining stories as they bleed into your life. With that in mind, here they are, ranked in order of how influential they currently are to you. Once you understand them, you can recognize their hold on you, and make a conscious decision to stick with them, or break away.

Loving Too Much(You scored a 8/10 on the Loving Too Much story)

The Loving Too Much story stems from your overflowing love and hope. Sometimes, however, it can be muddied by misguided feelings, expectations and sometimes, an unrequited desire.

The people you're most attracted to are usually just out of reach and all the more alluring for it — like those early crushes on teen idols. The less available your partner is, emotionally and physically, the more desirable he becomes.

You daydream, and your imagination fills in the details that reality hasn't provided. Do you ever seek out indirect contact with this person, visiting his workplace or getting to know his friends? Do you find yourself dreaming about marriage after a second date, or perhaps after a quick affair? The hit film "Fatal Attraction" illustrates an extreme version of the Loving Too Much story — taking it to abnormal levels. What it doesn't fully explore is the capacity for love that you probably possess.

Romantic Rescue (You scored a 7 on the Romantic Rescue story)

The love story that grips you, Romantic Rescue, uses love to give better meaning and significance to your life. Love, in your story, is all-powerful. It is the catalyst to change yourself, help your partner become the person you want them to be, and show the world what you are made of. Some people put themselves in the role of hero in this love story — nursing an ailing partner back to health, saving him from a string of previously destructive relationships, maybe even saving him from a physical danger. Other people with whom you share this story cast themselves as those in need of rescue - relying on their partners to swoop in and save them from whatever ill-fate's been visited upon them, either real or imagined.

In your love story, actions speak almost louder than words. The more present you are to your partner, or he to you, the stronger and faster your bond can develop. The image of one partner as caregiver and the other as recipient of that care, sets up an immediate give-and-take relationship, one that makes your union seem all the more magical.

It also sets up one of the parties as a savior. Though perhaps not as epic as seen in the characters in novels or films, this is significant nonetheless. In Hemingway's tragic love story, "Farewell to Arms," an injured soldier is nurtured back to health and into a blissful romance by a kindly nurse. Not long after, she's the one at death's door. In "Run Lola Run," a woman has twenty minutes to come up with a large amount of money to save her boyfriend's life. How far she goes to obtain it is a measure of her devotion or delusion.

Love vs. Honor (You scored a 7 on the Love vs. Honor story)

Love vs. Honor is the most dramatic love story of all — defined by an innate tug of war between what you want to do and what you should do. There is something coming between you and love. Perhaps it's a religious conviction, a previous commitment, family, patriotic duty, or deep belief that good things only come at a terrible price.

If you're looking for examples you can start back with the Greek myths where heroes were often forced to give up love and the comforts of home for battles in far-off lands. In Charles Dickens' "Great Expectations," Estella chooses to obey her benefactress and break Pip's heart, even though she deeply regrets doing so. Political obligations and previous relationships tear Humphrey Bogart and Ingrid Bergman apart in the unforgettable film, "Casablanca."

Rags to Riches (You scored a 2 on the Rags to Riches story)

Cinderella is the archetype of your Rags to Riches love story, a story that's been retold throughout history in books, movies, poems, and songs. For you, love is more important than expectations, stereotypes and what other people think is good for you. People with the strength of character to pursue their loves despite obstacles and adversity, thrive in this story.

Ah, the American Dream of self-determination. It's the stuff from which true fairytales are made. Your story is about getting your due. Have you or your partner been discriminated against? Have people done their best to keep you apart? Once your surpass society's rules, you and your partner can escape to a happier place your former detractors can only envy. For beyond the initial disapproval of your pairing, is a realization that you were bold enough to pursue a dream, something others don't have the courage to do.

Somewhere in your love story, you dream of waltzing into another world and proving once and for all that you've got the right stuff, talent and intelligence to belong there. Are you ambitious? Do you seek success, fame and basic recognition for your accomplishments? Yours is really the dream of getting your due — a pretty familiar theme. In the film "Pretty in Pink", Molly Ringwald wins the heart of the rich preppy, while in the movie "16 Candles", tough-guy Judd Nelson craves the attention of pretty girl Ringwald.

The Mentor and the Protégé (You scored a 2 on the The Mentor and the Protégé story)

The Mentor and the Protégé is a love story about more than love for love's sake. In it, love grows out of a deeper need to learn and understand other aspects of your love through the teaching's of someone else. Love isn't the only thing you're after. You want power, success, attention, maybe even fame. You want to be recognized, doted on, and adored for your talents. And the object of your desire is the person best suited to provide you with these things — a boss, a mentor, a teacher, or a troubled genius.

This archetypal story is the basis of many great tales of love — usually involving an older man falling for a younger woman. Hamlet flirted with his mother. Jane Eyre fell for her stern, older boss. Jackson Pollock married a less-accomplished painter.

Establishing Independence (You scored a 1 on the Establishing Independence story)

The Establishing Independence love story that grips you begins with desire — not only for someone different, but for exciting life changes, as well. Whether you're looking to grow away from a current relationship, move towards another relationship, or simply develop a new sense of who you are, look for a shift in what you pursue and how you define yourself relative to other people.

These transformations come in the package of another person, perhaps a soul mate but more likely someone you've selected not because of his potential, but for the qualities he possesses as different from those you are accustomed to.

Just as young Juliet escaped an arranged marriage by attaching herself to Romeo, people often establish a separate identity for themselves by dating people who are very different from their parents, or their last loves. If you come from a conservative coat and tie family, maybe a James Dean rebel is the best way to go. If you're tied to people who are defiantly liberal, you might seek out someone who will help you experiment with more conservative ideas.

阿哲要来了

阿哲要来了，一年不见，好旧不见 的老朋友。认识他的歌迷都会与他为 ”老朋友” 相称。一个在我的成长扮演重要角色的人物。他的歌伴我度过无数的悲伤与快乐。第一次看他的演出是当他与刘嘉陵合唱 ”有一点动心” 时的宣传。因该是小学的时候吧，不太记得了。 读书时代，零用钱不多， 中学时只有两块钱而且为了学业，所以限制了自己疯迷追偶像。限制自己只能看电视或报章报道，不能买周边商品或追偶像。在1995年, 阿哲的专辑 “宽容” 销量超过百万，我忍了下来，没买，真是咬牙切齿啊。哥哥不知何时，买了阿哲的翻版精选辑， 里面的几首歌让我影像深刻， “彩色的我”， “不回首” 和 “忘情忘爱” 。

1997年，我省吃俭用了一段日子，买下了地一张阿哲的专辑 “挚爱”。他的歌就是这样陪伴我度过了中学时代。正是收集所有的专辑是在1999年，有一次，跟朋友去逛街经过了Suntect City 的 Tower Records，见到了阿哲许多的旧专辑，简直就是进推两难，因为那些专辑都算已经绝版了，怎么一瞬间出现在我眼前了， 好感动！可惜我没带够钱，于是我隔了一个礼拜后再去。那时我已经带算过了要买几张，一共带了两百多块去把所有绝版专辑扫回来。。。。直到今天，我依然迷恋 着那清澈温柔优美的歌声。2004年，我终于参加了国际歌友会，见到了阿哲， 跟他交谈，玩游戏，掺假慈善活动看演唱会等。。。好开心。。

好久不见的老朋友！

任务

生于这个世界，这个年代，这个时辰， 这个背景。我们都没有选择生于死的权利。
来到这世界， 每个人都有来到这世界的任务。
没人会在一来到人世就知道是什么任务，只有岁月，智慧与情感的洗礼后才揭晓。
任务不一定是什么伟大的事业 流传千秋万世。
也许只是生态的一个角色罢了，而每个角色都负有他的使命与责任。
人的期望于失望主宰了的喜怒哀乐的看法和想法。

选择了这里是天党，这里就是天堂。
选择了这里是地域，这里就是选择了这里是地域。
如知这是地域而选择放弃的话， 那永远只能活在深渊。
因为幸福不是天赐的，而是要争取的。
幸福不是每个人都可以得到，不过曾经努力过去争取，此生也不算是白活了。

健康是福

有好半年没生病了。夏天来了， 造理来说应该不会在常下雨了，真好啊。可是当我与同事去台湾玩时，去了五天却下了四天的雨。真扫兴啊！！！ 还不止下雨， 天气还让人冷到发抖。。。。14°C, 穿了三件衣服都没用。结果呢。。。回国的那天就发烧了。 接下来的三个星期，咳嗽都好不了， 看了两次医生，吃药吃到我怕了。后来好了没几天， 去上班的途中淋了雨，结果又发烧又呕吐。。。好了之后， 肚子又闹涨风。一波一平一波又起。。。。天啊！！！

揭晓

答案终于揭晓了, 造理来说应该是很伤心. 心里有点难过于失望但是就是哭不出来, 可能是泪早已流干了吧. 另一方面却应该是开心的吧, 因为从此不必再背负着猜疑. 你永远都会在我心里的某个地方, 真的祝你幸福.

真烦

我自小时就比较自闭, 不喜欢合群, 也比较喜欢一个人. 长大后为了生活减少了孤僻, 开始了合群的生活. 可能是生活中的波折与经历让人长大, 慢慢地学习着看人, 看见了人性的善良与邪恶. 我自认不是很会分辨是非, 所以也不轻易的相信人. 我喜欢帮助别人, 可是却有些居心不良的人喜欢利用我对他的善意. 我也非常的讨厌说谎的人, 被窝发现了我可能在表面上还是他的朋友, 可是我再也不会信任他, 原谅这种人简直就是不可能. 说了谎如果会自己承认, 我也许会原谅, 就是不原谅那些为自己反错寻找借口的人. 有的还会说些连听起来都会很笨的借口, 真实无可救药.

最近的我, 不知怎么了, 不想出门,不想合群也不太相信人. 最近也在为自己的事业与未来的生活打算. 在衡量梦想与现实, 在寻找平衡点, 想做些自己真正想做的事. 例如: 换工作, 读书, 学习音乐与舞蹈, 出国看看世界. 喜欢的有很多很多, 就是不知如何选择, 也不知道从和开始, 真烦啊~~! (=@.@=).
好想尽快地把笑容找回来吧.

隐形的翅膀

Singer: 张韶涵 Album: 潘朵拉

每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望

不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望

我终于看到 所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻 歌声多嘹亮
我终于翱翔 用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风 就飞多远吧

隐形的翅膀 让梦恒久比天长
留一个愿望 让自己想象

lyrics taken from: http://mp3.baidu.com

my thoughts:
A very touching song, teaching us to be strong despite rain or storm.
Be optimistic and be brave for your dreams

Hypocrite

In the eyes of others, u seems so efficient, kind, innocents and plain girl-nextdoor. but once u open your mouth u sucks, words spoken are often sarcastic and loud. Being direct is not a sin but using sarcastic words to proof your wisdom and that u know alot is so low class. So i don't think i need to waste my effort to entertain those low class tactics. Minimum respect for others is essential for worklife. and i don't think your wisdom has reach that level yet and i don't think u can surive eles where when u work for others.

Met up weikang today...haven't met him 2 months. He's lost some weight. On arrival at JE library, spotted him munching on his books. He's there today from 2pm.....till evening, when i'm off work. Afraid that i'm hungry he intended to keep away his books to go eat dinner. I persuaded him to stay as i'm not that hungry yet and he promised that he had one more chapter to go... JiaYou! I'm entertained by the newspapers while he finished his tutorial.

Around 7.30pm, he packed and we were off to IMM for dinner. I thought he was not human, so late le still not hungry, in fact he's Mr Piggy. He argued that being Piggy is good, so many people love pig, but Kang, people always scold "Stupid Pig" leh. We waited for the shuttle bus behind Popular Bookshop, and talked about the comics book which we were reading now.We makan at BayStreet21 restaurant. He chose to be seated at the window seat. His theory is "food served at window seat will be of better quality"...hope so. From the menu, he chose Thai style curry with tomyam soup and coffee; i choose spaghetti with mushroom. From the menu, the dishes look and sound delicious...and our tummy are hitting the drums. When served the food, we were quite disapointed, proportion was so small and my plate was damn huge with a small portion of spaghetti with mushroom right in the center....his thai curry was equally inadequate for a guy appetite. The food was just "OK", i could cook better than this. While eating, the neighbouring table, a group of youngster were celebrating birthday for one of them....so nice......hmmm......it has been so long never celebrate my birthday with a group of people.....wondering when was the last time, already lost count and i never really celebrate my birthday before.......so envy.

We chatted on how's life going on. I found out how lucky i was that i never join university like him. If i took the same course like his, i may probably end up at woodbridge....anyway i'm not that rich yet to go university. What we learnt in poly has been taught in university in barely less than 2 months.I was wondering, if i took up a degree course, what will i be taking?....hope this chat session will not scare me off taking a degree course in future.

Sitting at the corner window seat was good that we got more privacy but slow in service, the waitress hardly notice us....hmm....may consider again whether to patronize that restaurant again. After dinner, we went to Diaso to shop for a display container to put his "mini figurine swords" givenby Gerald for his birthday, but can't get the one he need. So we went shopping on for his sandals, his feet is huge, size 12....like i said "Elephant Legs", but can't get the one he wanted since it's near shop closing time. So we went home, the queue for bus was empty, the bus has gone off, so we decided to walk to the interchange. Weikang commented that i walk very fast, in fact it is my normal speed, as my brother and dad always walk faster than me, and i got to catch up. We took some time to cross that road outside IMM, which was quite busy road. Kang shoved me to cross the road and i nearly tripped with his shove, if i tripped. i 'll make sure he knock that tree across the road(haha...). Walk through that pitch dark walkway, we thought we could finally reach the interchange by crossing the main road, but we were blocked off by the fences to prevent Jwalk. Awaiting us is the overhead bridge, long flights of stairs.....so lazy to climb. Kang challenged me to climb the stairs to see who climb faster.....prize is "Ice Kachang". I haven't agree, he speeded ahead le, played cheat...unfair...Ice Kachang....next time ba......off.....we went home, he took MRT, i took bus.

Really appreciate that Kang make time to meet up despite he's busy with his revision, during his precious term break. Once in awhile chat on messenger, thanks for being my buddy, Kang. Some of my friends often give exuses that they are busy or last min change mind when meeting up.

孤单自由

孤单的人是不怕寂寞的
孤单的人习惯了独来独往
自由来去不受约束
在自己的世界自由地翱翔
所有打扰自由的人都会变成敌人

败给了害怕的心魔

可能是害怕失去
所以才害怕拥有
明明握在手中的幸福
却因为害怕而放开了手
选择了自由却对你残酷
是我今生无法挽回的错
可望你会回头阻止我选泽了自由
可惜时间不能从来
只希望你能找到你要的幸福
可能是无法拥有才是最完美的

Life Of A Shrooms

I stood alone under the sun
With the pond by my side
No fish swim in it
Breeze blew the taste of autum
When the sun goes I wither
Winter comes snow covers me
Put me into a long deep sleep
Spring comes life grows on me
Life goes on......

Taste Of Heaven

天国的滋味

可望已久的滋味
得到它的时候刹那间的喜悦
在最需要的时候能得到它
好像瞬间拥有了全世界
这一刻脱离了悲伤
拥有它是这一辈子最幸福的事
用死亡来交换都已无所谓

天国

平静平和
无伤无悲
无痛无苦
无恨无仇
无冤无悔
白如棉
透如玻璃
明如光
静如空

天国不是死亡的像真, 不是结束
是心灵的净化
觉得快乐这一刻就是天堂
觉得悲伤这一刻就是地域

Esplande

5.30pm time to get off work......rush off to toilet to change off my uniform...yeah~ weekend is here at last...not working on saturday. rush down to slide my card and getting to take the bus which comes at 5.40pm. unluckily, i missed the bus, which came earlier recently, too bad got to take the private bus at 5.50pm. Reached BoonLay MRT at 6pm and and get on the train at 6.05pm. It so squeezy and stuffy in the train, but i managed to get a sit. perhaps i was too tire, i just dozed off while listening to my discman. Reaching Tiong Bahru, someone squeezing by kicked my shoe accidently and woked me up...gosh....i dozed off without knowing, lukily get to wake up else i may sleep at the way....haha 猪头......WeiKang called me, still drifting in & out of my sleep. he has reached cityhall, waiting for me at the stairs.

Reach CityHall MRT at 6.40pm. Met WeiKang at the stairs, my poly classmate whom i never met since graduation. We went to dine at marina square, where he recommended me to a nice fast food restaurant , but too bad, we get LOST in marina square, can't find that restaurant, instead we get to the foodcourt. The newly renovated foodcourt now has a good view of the harbour and esplande....wow so nice, such a serene view. i went to order my spagetthi and drink. when i get to the table, gosh i forgotten to order a drink for him, then i offered my drink to him. he took my drink and poured into the cup and went off to order his... so pai seh ;=). Minutes later he came back with his Laska and coffee, appetite not bad huh....still can eat so much after makan with his friends at Swensen before meeting me. A table nearer to the seaview was empty and we decided to shift, very gentlemanly he helped me to shift my food. Then he asked me whether i eat fishcake, i said it's ok for me, so he started to dig into his bowl and take out all the fishcakes he had. He dislike eating fishcake because he dislike eating fish with lots of flour in it and prefer real fish instead....haha now i'm not alone in this world to be a weirdo in food, i always feel very odd one out for not able to eat seafood, now got someone to accompany me le. He said that i should call him along next time i'm go go for feast., he will help me clear all those seafood. Marina square a place i used to frequent during poly days has changed so much, then i asked him whether the bowling alley is still around, Yes it's still around and he suggested that we go bowling after our dinner. The bowling alley, the gaming arcade and pool are now divided by glass panels so as to reduce noise level.

Quite a few years never bowl, a bit afraid that i bowl myself in...haha...Weikang get his no. 12 ball and i get no. 8, i can't get my no.7 which i usually use....;=( so heavy......hehehe......i won the first 3 rounds....hahha......he commented how i went wrong with my bowling posture, who cares....don't bowl myself in can le. Weikang slowly catch up.....in the end he scored 113 and i scored 51 :=( so lousy, but it was very fun. It was 8pm and we decided to be on our way to the Esplande outdoor theatre to watch a mini performance by Audio Insanity from SCC. walking on for 10 mins, we are still in marina square, We are LOST again (-.-)", luckily we came by the customer service counter, then i approached them for help. Finally get off that building....walking towards the Esplande, passing by the outdoor hawker we queued up to buy his mineral water. while queuing up, i was wondering why was the hawker next door wearing straw hat while sweating and cooking, didn't he feels hot wearing it? hmmm.......get to the outdoor theatre and get our seats in the centre row of seats. Jonathan, Siti, Andrew and Brandon were setting up their equipments. Weijian used to be singing in the band was not singing that nite. Audio Insanity's leading lady sang Hey Fellas & Sistas, Secret Sorrow, When The Night Falls, Tell Me, Hero(maria carey's song), etc. The performance was great with good sound system (better than at NP), great scenery of the City and cool weather. Weikang also commented that the performance was better than what he expected. My scc pals were there too, Estella, squid and some junior like 'C' 小姐 weijian's girlfriend and some others i forgotten their names.

On the way home, i gave weikang's his surprise birthday gift, a handphone pouch with handmade embrodiery of his name on it by myself, a small but unique gift. i often made some handcrafts for my friends, if i don't have any idea what they like, at least sincerity will be my best present. He was very touched, but commented it was too early to his actual birthday on 17 OCT. He tried putting his handphone into the pouch but his handphone was too big to put in....too bad he only get to use it only if his next handphone gets smaller. i'm happy that a small gift like this could actually bring out his boyish smile. i was wondering did those people whom i gave them handmade handcraft appreciate my unique art work? He actaully intended to take direct bus back home but decided to accompany me by MRT... :=P...haha....on the MRT get to share his newly bought Creative MP3 player, songs by Jay Zhou, Willbur Pan, etc. We went off separately at Jurong East...we may be meeting up for ktv and bowling next time.

i never know that this guy can be so happening and chatty, quite surprise that he actually told me some of his personal thoughts. In school he give me a impression of a very intelligent, serious and over grown tall boy (1.8m+) lor....i find myself damn shorty (1.62m) only.....haha. :p.....anyway nice friend to be around with. By the way, my wrist is still cramp after bowling.....sob...sob..

冬眠

冬天缤纷雪地
白皑皑的雪花在落叶之后飘下
秋与冬的交替的时候最美丽
泛黄色与红色的落叶上覆盖了白色雪花
鸟儿会飞往南方的夏天避含
松鼠会回到窝里避冬和冬眠
冷空气会将生物催眠
这一刻分增少了平静明显了

失忆症

失 忆症是失恋的人最想生的病， 忘了受伤了的心的痛也能麻醉自己。最近，不知怎么了，身边的朋友都是失恋了或是为了感情的事困扰， 至少有五位这么多。 他 / 她们都很想把伤心的事给忘了， 很想刻意的立刻的忘了。深爱过的人怎么可能一夜间忘记啊？这样刻意去忘记， 无意间也在反复的提醒了自己他 / 她在你的心里还依然存在。让自己伤心时哭泣，最好哭到再也哭不出来。能让情绪释放，会让伤痕没那么痛，反而是很刻意的压抑会觉得伤口更痛甚至鹏亏。 忘记不能猖促， 只能由时间冲淡， 变成了生命中的一片偶尔会经过而碰面的回忆， 但是在次碰面时不再是伤心而是那时的爱情余味的记忆。

想 起了当时忘了“他” 的生日，现在甚至模糊了他的样貌，也忘了为什么爱上了他。 在看到当时我唯一留下了的，他的SMS " 想我（la bi xiao xin）”， 只是想起了那时收到的喜悦， 并非伤心， 并没有别的感觉或依恋。现在偶尔会在想起， 有时想起他时会SMS他，但是他都不会回应， 没什么， 只是想起了一位老朋友罢了。


歌曲：原点
歌手：蔡健雅 / 孙燕姿 专辑：双栖动物

原点

拥抱的时候 心情有点痛
也去提早感受到寂寞
离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择

别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边 就对他好一点

不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点

总有那一天 相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前 已走远
别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边 就对谁好一点

我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段
这是属于你们的未来

不要看到你们的爱败给了时间
我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言

确定了放手 不再想回头
让那伤口 随着时间慢慢的远走

世界愿相同 相遇总会有
不知该说什么
这是不是别人眼中的解脱


选者了这条道路 一个人上街游走
左边右边没人牵着手
慢慢的习惯了寂寞


我们成为陌生人 的前奏

爱情的脆弱 我们各有对错



我们的坚持自我
幸福绝对不会再让你带走

Karma

善恶有报， 不是不报, 只是因果报应时辰未到。. 这句话似乎以应验在刚刚发生天灾的美国。 身为超级强国的美国， 总是给人留下 “天下无敌 ” 的影像， 还以为 911 事件过后在次爬起来的她会更坚强， 可是事实并非如此. 外伤易医， 内伤难医。所谓的 "和平， 公正， 公平， 自由， 人权” 都变得当然无存了。有时她对待人权与种族的态度很不公平与公正， 像大欺小， 得罪人多称呼人少。做人要懂得 “以德服人” ， 才会有好报。

她总是在外国发生大灾难时伸出援助，这次她的灾难却显落魄无助。 希望她往日所累积的公德会有回报吧， 毕竟在受苦受难的还是老百姓。


For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,
that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life - John 3:16

Behold, i stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door.
I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with me. - l Corinthians 15:3-4

For "whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved" - Romans 10:13

In Buddhism, "Om Mani Pame Hum" (in Sanskrit) makes up the Six Character Great Bright Mantra, each one individually is able to emit brilliant light. Recite the Six Character Great Bright Mantra once and the immeasurable Buddhas, Bodhisattvas abd Vajra Dharma protectors constantly support and protects you

I'm not attached to any religion, but if there is god, hope that those suffering now shall be saved.

遇见

我们还是朋友吗? 往往会在感情中落派或愧疚的那方问起. 卷恋者对感情的依依不舍与执着或者同情一个受了重伤的小白兔. 也许是想在些许的悲伤中找到安慰, 找个台阶下台吧. 丑陋的人性总会把当年最简单的"爱情"给忘了, 在感情画上休止符时画上了泪水与遗憾.

在对的时间, 遇见错的人, 是悲剧.
在错的时间, 遇见对的人, 是遗憾
在对的时间, 遇见对的人, 是幸福

还是朋友吗? 是问者问来安慰自己, 谁都知道打破了的玻璃怎么补也补不回来, 也会有裂痕. 想做回当初简单的普通朋友是不可能的, 难免说到某些话题时变得很尴尬或怕说到一些会再次伤害到对方的话.

泪水很咸, 会使心口发炎
时间很慢长, 却是最好良药
现实像荆棘, 需要勇气面对
缘分已近, 要勇敢的放手

"还是朋友" 是在骗自己, 敷衍旁人罢了. 往往时间的过去, 会慢慢地疏远, 失去联络或他早已找到了新恋情, 遗忘了你. 也许被遗忘的过去是最好的安慰.

我爱, 未来爱我的人, 我爱, 未来我爱的人
我爱, 未来想要遇见我的人, 我爱, 未来我想要遇见的人
我站在世界最高峰望着你, 希望有天能与您相遇
(在未来见咯)

Breaking Promise

i hate people not keeping to their words.
Saying something one moment
Saying another thing when turn their backs
Why keeping promises seems so tough
Why can't inform me earlier
So that i could have done something
Forcing me to face something not in place the first place
Now I'm fuming whether to admit to being defeated
Or stay on with my principles
I hate being forced to do things against my principle
Don't force the devil in me

我绝情起来可是翻脸不认人, 别怪我绝情
Don't come near me! I'm DANGEROUS!

Why

Why humans are so evil. Why do people like to make use of each other, get close to or say praises to people with evil intention. Why can't human be simple. Human are all so hypocrite.
Doubting, Ploting, Scheming , Gossiping, Slandering, Lying, Betraying,
If there's God, please help to brain wash these evil thoughts. God please stop me from turning evil one day. Please do not give me something and yet snatch precious things from me, i rather that i never gain any.
i rather destroy the future than being snatch away what i already have. so don't try to test my patience, i'll turn evil.
Luckily evil still under control, thanks to Buddah Teachings which i've read from a book, though i don't have any faith yet. Hope that i will find my faith one day, be it any religion with no evil. but firstly i've to verify it's facts and differences.

Buddhism Metta Chant: Om Mani Padme Hum

想起你了

想起你了. 常见你上网,有时好想跟您交谈, 又不知要如何开口. 有一种熟悉又很陌生的感觉. 就像当初我写的歌一样

陌生的起点 是不是种逃避........
过度的冷静 感情的淡去................
也许简单的友情会容易许多......

残 酷的事实.....我们还是朋友吗? 在朋友的聚会中, 仿佛还是朋友, 偶尔还会闲聊. 有一次聚会, 聊着聊着, 在说着笑话时, 你突然轻轻的拍了一下我的肩膀, 就像平常老友的举动班. 可是偶而SMS您的时候, 你却没回复, 是太忙或早已恨下心把我忘了, 也许是自食其果吧.

当 初认识您时, 并没留亿过你,可能你就是那么不起眼的类型吧. 过后的交谈, 也慢慢地熟落了, 对你的印象还不错. 可惜面对着生活与课业的压力. ...还是选者了放弃. 那天边写这着简讯, 还流着泪, 发出了又后悔,甚至把您的简讯大部分都删除了,你也一定很伤心吧.....我一直很气自己, 也很气你, 为什么你不敢走向前来亲口对我说 '你喜欢我' , 也许这一辈子都不会从你的口中听见了吧.

也许你不会记得我, 但是偶尔还是会想起你, 那段短占却美好的回忆. 希望你快乐就好.