I stood alone under the sun
With the pond by my side
No fish swim in it
Breeze blew the taste of autum
When the sun goes I wither
Winter comes snow covers me
Put me into a long deep sleep
Spring comes life grows on me
Life goes on......
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Life Of A Shrooms
I stood alone under the sun
With the pond by my side
No fish swim in it
Breeze blew the taste of autum
When the sun goes I wither
Winter comes snow covers me
Put me into a long deep sleep
Spring comes life grows on me
Life goes on......
Monday, November 14, 2005
Taste Of Heaven
天国的滋味
可望已久的滋味
得到它的时候刹那间的喜悦
在最需要的时候能得到它
好像瞬间拥有了全世界
这一刻脱离了悲伤
拥有它是这一辈子最幸福的事
用死亡来交换都已无所谓
天国
平静平和
无伤无悲
无痛无苦
无恨无仇
无冤无悔
白如棉
透如玻璃
明如光
静如空
天国不是死亡的像真, 不是结束
是心灵的净化
觉得快乐这一刻就是天堂
觉得悲伤这一刻就是地域
可望已久的滋味
得到它的时候刹那间的喜悦
在最需要的时候能得到它
好像瞬间拥有了全世界
这一刻脱离了悲伤
拥有它是这一辈子最幸福的事
用死亡来交换都已无所谓
天国
平静平和
无伤无悲
无痛无苦
无恨无仇
无冤无悔
白如棉
透如玻璃
明如光
静如空
天国不是死亡的像真, 不是结束
是心灵的净化
觉得快乐这一刻就是天堂
觉得悲伤这一刻就是地域
Monday, October 10, 2005
Esplande
5.30pm time to get off work......rush off to toilet to change off my uniform...yeah~ weekend is here at last...not working on saturday. rush down to slide my card and getting to take the bus which comes at 5.40pm. unluckily, i missed the bus, which came earlier recently, too bad got to take the private bus at 5.50pm. Reached BoonLay MRT at 6pm and and get on the train at 6.05pm. It so squeezy and stuffy in the train, but i managed to get a sit. perhaps i was too tire, i just dozed off while listening to my discman. Reaching Tiong Bahru, someone squeezing by kicked my shoe accidently and woked me up...gosh....i dozed off without knowing, lukily get to wake up else i may sleep at the way....haha 猪头......WeiKang called me, still drifting in & out of my sleep. he has reached cityhall, waiting for me at the stairs.
Reach CityHall MRT at 6.40pm. Met WeiKang at the stairs, my poly classmate whom i never met since graduation. We went to dine at marina square, where he recommended me to a nice fast food restaurant , but too bad, we get LOST in marina square, can't find that restaurant, instead we get to the foodcourt. The newly renovated foodcourt now has a good view of the harbour and esplande....wow so nice, such a serene view. i went to order my spagetthi and drink. when i get to the table, gosh i forgotten to order a drink for him, then i offered my drink to him. he took my drink and poured into the cup and went off to order his... so pai seh ;=). Minutes later he came back with his Laska and coffee, appetite not bad huh....still can eat so much after makan with his friends at Swensen before meeting me. A table nearer to the seaview was empty and we decided to shift, very gentlemanly he helped me to shift my food. Then he asked me whether i eat fishcake, i said it's ok for me, so he started to dig into his bowl and take out all the fishcakes he had. He dislike eating fishcake because he dislike eating fish with lots of flour in it and prefer real fish instead....haha now i'm not alone in this world to be a weirdo in food, i always feel very odd one out for not able to eat seafood, now got someone to accompany me le. He said that i should call him along next time i'm go go for feast., he will help me clear all those seafood. Marina square a place i used to frequent during poly days has changed so much, then i asked him whether the bowling alley is still around, Yes it's still around and he suggested that we go bowling after our dinner. The bowling alley, the gaming arcade and pool are now divided by glass panels so as to reduce noise level.
Quite a few years never bowl, a bit afraid that i bowl myself in...haha...Weikang get his no. 12 ball and i get no. 8, i can't get my no.7 which i usually use....;=( so heavy......hehehe......i won the first 3 rounds....hahha......he commented how i went wrong with my bowling posture, who cares....don't bowl myself in can le. Weikang slowly catch up.....in the end he scored 113 and i scored 51 :=( so lousy, but it was very fun. It was 8pm and we decided to be on our way to the Esplande outdoor theatre to watch a mini performance by Audio Insanity from SCC. walking on for 10 mins, we are still in marina square, We are LOST again (-.-)", luckily we came by the customer service counter, then i approached them for help. Finally get off that building....walking towards the Esplande, passing by the outdoor hawker we queued up to buy his mineral water. while queuing up, i was wondering why was the hawker next door wearing straw hat while sweating and cooking, didn't he feels hot wearing it? hmmm.......get to the outdoor theatre and get our seats in the centre row of seats. Jonathan, Siti, Andrew and Brandon were setting up their equipments. Weijian used to be singing in the band was not singing that nite. Audio Insanity's leading lady sang Hey Fellas & Sistas, Secret Sorrow, When The Night Falls, Tell Me, Hero(maria carey's song), etc. The performance was great with good sound system (better than at NP), great scenery of the City and cool weather. Weikang also commented that the performance was better than what he expected. My scc pals were there too, Estella, squid and some junior like 'C' 小姐 weijian's girlfriend and some others i forgotten their names.
On the way home, i gave weikang's his surprise birthday gift, a handphone pouch with handmade embrodiery of his name on it by myself, a small but unique gift. i often made some handcrafts for my friends, if i don't have any idea what they like, at least sincerity will be my best present. He was very touched, but commented it was too early to his actual birthday on 17 OCT. He tried putting his handphone into the pouch but his handphone was too big to put in....too bad he only get to use it only if his next handphone gets smaller. i'm happy that a small gift like this could actually bring out his boyish smile. i was wondering did those people whom i gave them handmade handcraft appreciate my unique art work? He actaully intended to take direct bus back home but decided to accompany me by MRT... :=P...haha....on the MRT get to share his newly bought Creative MP3 player, songs by Jay Zhou, Willbur Pan, etc. We went off separately at Jurong East...we may be meeting up for ktv and bowling next time.
i never know that this guy can be so happening and chatty, quite surprise that he actually told me some of his personal thoughts. In school he give me a impression of a very intelligent, serious and over grown tall boy (1.8m+) lor....i find myself damn shorty (1.62m) only.....haha. :p.....anyway nice friend to be around with. By the way, my wrist is still cramp after bowling.....sob...sob..
Reach CityHall MRT at 6.40pm. Met WeiKang at the stairs, my poly classmate whom i never met since graduation. We went to dine at marina square, where he recommended me to a nice fast food restaurant , but too bad, we get LOST in marina square, can't find that restaurant, instead we get to the foodcourt. The newly renovated foodcourt now has a good view of the harbour and esplande....wow so nice, such a serene view. i went to order my spagetthi and drink. when i get to the table, gosh i forgotten to order a drink for him, then i offered my drink to him. he took my drink and poured into the cup and went off to order his... so pai seh ;=). Minutes later he came back with his Laska and coffee, appetite not bad huh....still can eat so much after makan with his friends at Swensen before meeting me. A table nearer to the seaview was empty and we decided to shift, very gentlemanly he helped me to shift my food. Then he asked me whether i eat fishcake, i said it's ok for me, so he started to dig into his bowl and take out all the fishcakes he had. He dislike eating fishcake because he dislike eating fish with lots of flour in it and prefer real fish instead....haha now i'm not alone in this world to be a weirdo in food, i always feel very odd one out for not able to eat seafood, now got someone to accompany me le. He said that i should call him along next time i'm go go for feast., he will help me clear all those seafood. Marina square a place i used to frequent during poly days has changed so much, then i asked him whether the bowling alley is still around, Yes it's still around and he suggested that we go bowling after our dinner. The bowling alley, the gaming arcade and pool are now divided by glass panels so as to reduce noise level.
Quite a few years never bowl, a bit afraid that i bowl myself in...haha...Weikang get his no. 12 ball and i get no. 8, i can't get my no.7 which i usually use....;=( so heavy......hehehe......i won the first 3 rounds....hahha......he commented how i went wrong with my bowling posture, who cares....don't bowl myself in can le. Weikang slowly catch up.....in the end he scored 113 and i scored 51 :=( so lousy, but it was very fun. It was 8pm and we decided to be on our way to the Esplande outdoor theatre to watch a mini performance by Audio Insanity from SCC. walking on for 10 mins, we are still in marina square, We are LOST again (-.-)", luckily we came by the customer service counter, then i approached them for help. Finally get off that building....walking towards the Esplande, passing by the outdoor hawker we queued up to buy his mineral water. while queuing up, i was wondering why was the hawker next door wearing straw hat while sweating and cooking, didn't he feels hot wearing it? hmmm.......get to the outdoor theatre and get our seats in the centre row of seats. Jonathan, Siti, Andrew and Brandon were setting up their equipments. Weijian used to be singing in the band was not singing that nite. Audio Insanity's leading lady sang Hey Fellas & Sistas, Secret Sorrow, When The Night Falls, Tell Me, Hero(maria carey's song), etc. The performance was great with good sound system (better than at NP), great scenery of the City and cool weather. Weikang also commented that the performance was better than what he expected. My scc pals were there too, Estella, squid and some junior like 'C' 小姐 weijian's girlfriend and some others i forgotten their names.
On the way home, i gave weikang's his surprise birthday gift, a handphone pouch with handmade embrodiery of his name on it by myself, a small but unique gift. i often made some handcrafts for my friends, if i don't have any idea what they like, at least sincerity will be my best present. He was very touched, but commented it was too early to his actual birthday on 17 OCT. He tried putting his handphone into the pouch but his handphone was too big to put in....too bad he only get to use it only if his next handphone gets smaller. i'm happy that a small gift like this could actually bring out his boyish smile. i was wondering did those people whom i gave them handmade handcraft appreciate my unique art work? He actaully intended to take direct bus back home but decided to accompany me by MRT... :=P...haha....on the MRT get to share his newly bought Creative MP3 player, songs by Jay Zhou, Willbur Pan, etc. We went off separately at Jurong East...we may be meeting up for ktv and bowling next time.
i never know that this guy can be so happening and chatty, quite surprise that he actually told me some of his personal thoughts. In school he give me a impression of a very intelligent, serious and over grown tall boy (1.8m+) lor....i find myself damn shorty (1.62m) only.....haha. :p.....anyway nice friend to be around with. By the way, my wrist is still cramp after bowling.....sob...sob..
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Sunday, September 18, 2005
失忆症
失 忆症是失恋的人最想生的病， 忘了受伤了的心的痛也能麻醉自己。最近，不知怎么了，身边的朋友都是失恋了或是为了感情的事困扰， 至少有五位这么多。 他 / 她们都很想把伤心的事给忘了， 很想刻意的立刻的忘了。深爱过的人怎么可能一夜间忘记啊？这样刻意去忘记， 无意间也在反复的提醒了自己他 / 她在你的心里还依然存在。让自己伤心时哭泣，最好哭到再也哭不出来。能让情绪释放，会让伤痕没那么痛，反而是很刻意的压抑会觉得伤口更痛甚至鹏亏。 忘记不能猖促， 只能由时间冲淡， 变成了生命中的一片偶尔会经过而碰面的回忆， 但是在次碰面时不再是伤心而是那时的爱情余味的记忆。
想 起了当时忘了“他” 的生日，现在甚至模糊了他的样貌，也忘了为什么爱上了他。 在看到当时我唯一留下了的，他的SMS " 想我（la bi xiao xin）”， 只是想起了那时收到的喜悦， 并非伤心， 并没有别的感觉或依恋。现在偶尔会在想起， 有时想起他时会SMS他，但是他都不会回应， 没什么， 只是想起了一位老朋友罢了。
歌曲：原点
歌手：蔡健雅 / 孙燕姿 专辑：双栖动物
原点
拥抱的时候 心情有点痛
也去提早感受到寂寞
离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边 就对他好一点
不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点
总有那一天 相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前 已走远
别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边 就对谁好一点
我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段
这是属于你们的未来
不要看到你们的爱败给了时间
我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言
想 起了当时忘了“他” 的生日，现在甚至模糊了他的样貌，也忘了为什么爱上了他。 在看到当时我唯一留下了的，他的SMS " 想我（la bi xiao xin）”， 只是想起了那时收到的喜悦， 并非伤心， 并没有别的感觉或依恋。现在偶尔会在想起， 有时想起他时会SMS他，但是他都不会回应， 没什么， 只是想起了一位老朋友罢了。
歌曲：原点
歌手：蔡健雅 / 孙燕姿 专辑：双栖动物
原点
拥抱的时候 心情有点痛
也去提早感受到寂寞
离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在你的身边 就对他好一点
不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们经过那么多考验
最后还是回到了原点
总有那一天 相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前 已走远
别对我抱歉 别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边 就对谁好一点
我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖
忘了曾有过的片段
这是属于你们的未来
不要看到你们的爱败给了时间
我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言
直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解
默契是最宝贵的语言
Monday, September 12, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Karma
善恶有报， 不是不报, 只是因果报应时辰未到。. 这句话似乎以应验在刚刚发生天灾的美国。 身为超级强国的美国， 总是给人留下 “天下无敌 ” 的影像， 还以为 911 事件过后在次爬起来的她会更坚强， 可是事实并非如此. 外伤易医， 内伤难医。所谓的 "和平， 公正， 公平， 自由， 人权” 都变得当然无存了。有时她对待人权与种族的态度很不公平与公正， 像大欺小， 得罪人多称呼人少。做人要懂得 “以德服人” ， 才会有好报。
她总是在外国发生大灾难时伸出援助，这次她的灾难却显落魄无助。 希望她往日所累积的公德会有回报吧， 毕竟在受苦受难的还是老百姓。
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,
that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life - John 3:16
Behold, i stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door.
I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with me. - l Corinthians 15:3-4
For "whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved" - Romans 10:13
In Buddhism, "Om Mani Pame Hum" (in Sanskrit) makes up the Six Character Great Bright Mantra, each one individually is able to emit brilliant light. Recite the Six Character Great Bright Mantra once and the immeasurable Buddhas, Bodhisattvas abd Vajra Dharma protectors constantly support and protects you
I'm not attached to any religion, but if there is god, hope that those suffering now shall be saved.
她总是在外国发生大灾难时伸出援助，这次她的灾难却显落魄无助。 希望她往日所累积的公德会有回报吧， 毕竟在受苦受难的还是老百姓。
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,
that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life - John 3:16
Behold, i stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door.
I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with me. - l Corinthians 15:3-4
For "whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved" - Romans 10:13
In Buddhism, "Om Mani Pame Hum" (in Sanskrit) makes up the Six Character Great Bright Mantra, each one individually is able to emit brilliant light. Recite the Six Character Great Bright Mantra once and the immeasurable Buddhas, Bodhisattvas abd Vajra Dharma protectors constantly support and protects you
I'm not attached to any religion, but if there is god, hope that those suffering now shall be saved.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
遇见
我们还是朋友吗? 往往会在感情中落派或愧疚的那方问起. 卷恋者对感情的依依不舍与执着或者同情一个受了重伤的小白兔. 也许是想在些许的悲伤中找到安慰, 找个台阶下台吧. 丑陋的人性总会把当年最简单的"爱情"给忘了, 在感情画上休止符时画上了泪水与遗憾.
在对的时间, 遇见错的人, 是悲剧.
在错的时间, 遇见对的人, 是遗憾
在对的时间, 遇见对的人, 是幸福
还是朋友吗? 是问者问来安慰自己, 谁都知道打破了的玻璃怎么补也补不回来, 也会有裂痕. 想做回当初简单的普通朋友是不可能的, 难免说到某些话题时变得很尴尬或怕说到一些会再次伤害到对方的话.
泪水很咸, 会使心口发炎
时间很慢长, 却是最好良药
现实像荆棘, 需要勇气面对
缘分已近, 要勇敢的放手
"还是朋友" 是在骗自己, 敷衍旁人罢了. 往往时间的过去, 会慢慢地疏远, 失去联络或他早已找到了新恋情, 遗忘了你. 也许被遗忘的过去是最好的安慰.
我爱, 未来爱我的人, 我爱, 未来我爱的人
我爱, 未来想要遇见我的人, 我爱, 未来我想要遇见的人
我站在世界最高峰望着你, 希望有天能与您相遇
(在未来见咯)
在对的时间, 遇见错的人, 是悲剧.
在错的时间, 遇见对的人, 是遗憾
在对的时间, 遇见对的人, 是幸福
还是朋友吗? 是问者问来安慰自己, 谁都知道打破了的玻璃怎么补也补不回来, 也会有裂痕. 想做回当初简单的普通朋友是不可能的, 难免说到某些话题时变得很尴尬或怕说到一些会再次伤害到对方的话.
泪水很咸, 会使心口发炎
时间很慢长, 却是最好良药
现实像荆棘, 需要勇气面对
缘分已近, 要勇敢的放手
"还是朋友" 是在骗自己, 敷衍旁人罢了. 往往时间的过去, 会慢慢地疏远, 失去联络或他早已找到了新恋情, 遗忘了你. 也许被遗忘的过去是最好的安慰.
我爱, 未来爱我的人, 我爱, 未来我爱的人
我爱, 未来想要遇见我的人, 我爱, 未来我想要遇见的人
我站在世界最高峰望着你, 希望有天能与您相遇
(在未来见咯)
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Breaking Promise
i hate people not keeping to their words.
Saying something one moment
Saying another thing when turn their backs
Why keeping promises seems so tough
Why can't inform me earlier
So that i could have done something
Forcing me to face something not in place the first place
Now I'm fuming whether to admit to being defeated
Or stay on with my principles
I hate being forced to do things against my principle
Don't force the devil in me
我绝情起来可是翻脸不认人, 别怪我绝情
Don't come near me! I'm DANGEROUS!
Saying something one moment
Saying another thing when turn their backs
Why keeping promises seems so tough
Why can't inform me earlier
So that i could have done something
Forcing me to face something not in place the first place
Now I'm fuming whether to admit to being defeated
Or stay on with my principles
I hate being forced to do things against my principle
Don't force the devil in me
我绝情起来可是翻脸不认人, 别怪我绝情
Don't come near me! I'm DANGEROUS!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Why
Why humans are so evil. Why do people like to make use of each other, get close to or say praises to people with evil intention. Why can't human be simple. Human are all so hypocrite.
Doubting, Ploting, Scheming , Gossiping, Slandering, Lying, Betraying,
If there's God, please help to brain wash these evil thoughts. God please stop me from turning evil one day. Please do not give me something and yet snatch precious things from me, i rather that i never gain any.
i rather destroy the future than being snatch away what i already have. so don't try to test my patience, i'll turn evil.
Luckily evil still under control, thanks to Buddah Teachings which i've read from a book, though i don't have any faith yet. Hope that i will find my faith one day, be it any religion with no evil. but firstly i've to verify it's facts and differences.
Buddhism Metta Chant: Om Mani Padme Hum
Doubting, Ploting, Scheming , Gossiping, Slandering, Lying, Betraying,
If there's God, please help to brain wash these evil thoughts. God please stop me from turning evil one day. Please do not give me something and yet snatch precious things from me, i rather that i never gain any.
i rather destroy the future than being snatch away what i already have. so don't try to test my patience, i'll turn evil.
Luckily evil still under control, thanks to Buddah Teachings which i've read from a book, though i don't have any faith yet. Hope that i will find my faith one day, be it any religion with no evil. but firstly i've to verify it's facts and differences.
Buddhism Metta Chant: Om Mani Padme Hum
Sunday, July 17, 2005
想起你了
想起你了. 常见你上网,有时好想跟您交谈, 又不知要如何开口. 有一种熟悉又很陌生的感觉. 就像当初我写的歌一样
陌生的起点 是不是种逃避........
过度的冷静 感情的淡去................
也许简单的友情会容易许多......
残 酷的事实.....我们还是朋友吗? 在朋友的聚会中, 仿佛还是朋友, 偶尔还会闲聊. 有一次聚会, 聊着聊着, 在说着笑话时, 你突然轻轻的拍了一下我的肩膀, 就像平常老友的举动班. 可是偶而SMS您的时候, 你却没回复, 是太忙或早已恨下心把我忘了, 也许是自食其果吧.
当 初认识您时, 并没留亿过你,可能你就是那么不起眼的类型吧. 过后的交谈, 也慢慢地熟落了, 对你的印象还不错. 可惜面对着生活与课业的压力. ...还是选者了放弃. 那天边写这着简讯, 还流着泪, 发出了又后悔,甚至把您的简讯大部分都删除了,你也一定很伤心吧.....我一直很气自己, 也很气你, 为什么你不敢走向前来亲口对我说 '你喜欢我' , 也许这一辈子都不会从你的口中听见了吧.
也许你不会记得我, 但是偶尔还是会想起你, 那段短占却美好的回忆. 希望你快乐就好.
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